Rivers and Roses (Attn: Tia)

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Rivers and Roses (Attn: Tia)

Postby Bridget » Wed Sep 20, 2017 11:21 pm

Haxia
It was a close call, but Haxia did not scurry; she walked, quickly, with perhaps a little less dignity than she might usually employ. She was beginning to learn what it meant to be late. The other morning, she had taken the time to properly secure her hair in a crown of braids, as she used to at home. She had been only a few minutes late to a lesson, and her braids had fallen out in the resulting kitchen duty.

Haxia had learned part of the lesson, at least; her long red hair was loose down her back, instead of up in the elaborate hairstyles she prefered. But the experience smarted. Was she to be allowed no comfort of home? It was bad enough to be forced to learn to scrub floors and wash pots; it seemed as if the Tower wished to strip away everything that reminded her of who she was, Haxia do Catalan a’Coralle. She was a lady, not a novice. And she would certainly not be Aes Sedai. As soon as the bloody women managed to teach her to turn her dreams back into dreams, Haxia had every intention of returning home. Even if Rhys do Amris a’Norne would no longer marry her. She had no intention of wedding him, even if he begged, anyways.

She counted the doors as she walked, looking for the fifth on the right. Haxia was to meet the Mistress of Novices for this lesson, the very woman who Cedric had dragged her by the ear to. That had been excruciating. It was bad enough that father had sent Cedric to take her back to the Tower, instead of home. It was worse to be sent to a farm for a month, and for her own brother to volunteer to escort her there. And her penance had not ended when she had been sent back to the Tower. Haxia would not work her own servants so hard. She would not work a dog so hard! If she had the tendency to sleep, she would be truly infuriated. As it was, the early morning chores were a good enough motivator to keep her awake and out of Tel’aran’rhiod. Not that Haxia would ever declare herself to be thankful.

Haxia knocked lightly on the door, half hoping that Tia Sedai would not be there. It would be lovely to go back to the dining hall and help herself to a second helping of breakfast, rather than continue with the farce of ‘training to be Aes Sedai’. When she had first come to the Tower, she had fully expected to simply be Healed of whatever ailment that was causing her dreams. Haxia had not believed them when they told her she could channel, and that she must stay to be trained in that as well. She still did not believe them. But Aes Sedai were powerful people, and her father wished her to be here. However much that ached, she was a do Catalan a’Coralle, and she would do what her father asked of her. Even if that meant trying to learn to channel.

But Haxia certainly didn’t have to be happy about it.

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Re: Rivers and Roses (Attn: Tia)

Postby Roan » Mon Sep 25, 2017 8:02 am

Tia Sedai
Tia Sedai tended to assign Accepted and very newly raised Aes Sedai the task of teaching the basics of the One Power to the Novices who arrived at the Tower. With Haxia do Catalan a'Coralle, though, the Green Sister and Mistress of Novices thought it best if she took responsibility for the girl’s One Power lessons.

The Novice made it clear through her actions and motivation that she was not pleased to be at the Tower. Having run away once already, the young woman proved she was a potential flight risk. Part of Tia wanted to be sympathetic, but her Sisters said the girl could channel, and Tia’s first meeting with Haxia confirmed as much. As homesick as the girl might be, she had to be at the Tower to learn to control her abilities. The alternative was. . .well, not acceptable.

Hearing the knock at the door, Tia called, “Enter.” She watched as Haxia stepped in, and it wasn’t hard to miss the lack of enthusiasm. Most of those Tia had taught the basics of the One Power to were excited and eager to learn. Haxia looked neither excited nor eager.

Tia had the pair meet in a smaller classroom, and moved all but two chairs to the back of the room. In the middle of the room, the two chairs stood facing each other. Waving for Haxia to sit, Tia sat opposite her, “Good morning, Haxia. I’m sure I do not need to tell you that we are hear so you can learn a bit about the One Power. Ultimately, what you will learn to do is embrace Saidar which is the first step to learning how to channel.

“Now. . .teaching such a thing is not easy, and will likely not happen in a day, or a week. For some, it takes months for them to be able to embrace the Source. Now before we get to the heart of the lesson, I want you to tell me what you know of the One Power,” Tia explained.

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Based on what Marla’s re-read (see her post in the Binky board), learning how to touch the Source the first time can actually take a great deal of time. It’s made me sort of re-think how the OPB course should go and that it’s unlikely someone would be able to embrace saidar on their first attempt. . .food for thought.
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Re: Rivers and Roses (Attn: Tia)

Postby Bridget » Mon Sep 25, 2017 7:34 pm

Haxia
Haxia sat when the Aes Sedai told her to sit. She resented them, and resented the Grey Tower- but they were Aes Sedai. When an Aes Sedai told you to scrub floors, you bloody well scrubbed floors. But it was hard to focus on Tia Sedai’s words. Haxia didn’t want to learn to channel. If they could teach her to channel, then she could become Aes Sedai. She wanted to go home. It was clear that she would not marry Rhys; if he couldn’t be trusted to keep a single letter from her father, he certainly couldn’t be trusted to be a decent husband. But all Haxia wanted anymore was to see her brother again, to have a quick moment of her father’s acknowledgment. She had done her best to keep a pleasant demeanor here; she was kind to the other novices, scrubbed floors, washed dishes and the like without complaining. But Light, all she wanted to do was go home. Go home to the manor in Lugard, and sleep for years- without a single dream.

Instead she nodded blearily at the Aes Sedai. What did she know of the One Power? “Yes, Tia Sedai.” Haxia murmured hesitantly, worrying the fabric of her skirt between her fingers. “There are two halves of the Power, saidar and saidin. Women channel saidar.” Haxia snuck a look at Tia’s face, hoping that it would be enough. But the Aes Sedai’s expression seemed all but impassive. “There are.. Elements to the One Power. Fire, air, earth, water, and spirit.” The last one made no sense to her; the first four were self explanatory, but spirit? Haxia had listened to other novices as they spoke about their own lessons, had even mustered up the urge to ask a few questions. It all felt a world away from her. Aes Sedai channeled, and Haxia would rather prefer it if they keep it to themselves and far away from her. “Those are used to make weaves. Other novices told me about making balls of light, heating tea, and that sort of thing.”

It seemed useful enough, to be honest. Useful and harmless. But another novice told her that Aes Sedai and Asha’man could ‘travel’- that they could bore their way through the pattern to another place in the world! She wished she didn’t believe it, but Zaraphe didn’t seem the type to lie.

“Could I ask you a question, Tia Sedai?” Haxia asked, and hurried ahead at the Aes Sedai’s nod before she lost her nerve. “Why must I learn to channel? I know that I must learn to Dream, so that I don’t hurt myself in Tel’aran’rhiod.” She could not help but touch her forearm. Haxia could feel the scar, even through the material of her dress. “But why must I learn to channel? Couldn’t I learn to not enter the World of Dreams, and go home?”


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I'm fine with Haxia having the spark/the potential to just die if she doesn't learn.

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Re: Rivers and Roses (Attn: Tia)

Postby Roan » Sat Sep 30, 2017 11:31 am

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Haxia didn’t want to learn. She would not be the first Novice who had no desire to be at the Tower longer than she needed to be. Offering a small, but warm smile, Tia tilted her head slightly, “You must learn to channel because you’ve got the Spark. . .the ability to channel, and you may have already unknowingly done so. If you do not learn how to control your abilities, you could hurt yourself or someone else. You could also unknowingly burn yourself out so that you could never touch the source again.

“Chances are likely you may have already channeled and not realized it. If you’ve gotten sick without cause...been nauseous or had a bad headache,” Tia explained. “At least it was like that for me, but I’ve been told stories of women and men getting horribly sick and dying because they had the Spark and didn’t know how to control it.”

Sitting back in her chair and taking in a slow deep breath, “It’s not just about learning not to enter the World of Dreams. That is one part of it for you, one I can’t help you with but there are others who can. It’s about learning how to control your abilities so you are not a danger to yourself or others, and how to prevent yourself from burning out.

“Burning out is something that can’t be healed, and for those of us who are channelers, it is often a fate worse than death. The thought of never touching the Source again is terrifying for many of us,” Tia explained. “For you, the possibility of hurting others or yourself should be motivation enough, I hope?”
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Re: Rivers and Roses (Attn: Tia)

Postby Bridget » Sun Oct 08, 2017 1:55 pm

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The thought that she might have already channeled made Haxia shiver. Wouldn’t she have realized? The way Nyaine and some of the other novices spoke of saidar- well, it didn’t seem like something she might do on accident. Not if it really felt the way that they had described it to her. Perhaps she had had a few headaches in the past year, but what of it? She had been either sleeping horribly or avoiding sleep; headaches were inevitable. Frustrated and unnerved, Haxia rubbed at her scar and avoided Tia Sedai’s gaze.

“Yes, Aes Sedai.” She murmured, ducking her head a little. Light, the Tower only brought her bad news after bad news. It had been bad enough to learn that the World of Dreams might kill her; was it too much to ask that saidar not do the same? For all her attempts to remain positive and cheerful in spite of this place, Haxia had never faced such hardship before. The chores were mind numbing and degrading, and the effort to smile over it was wearing her down. Blood and ashes, could nothing be easy here? It’s about learning how to control your abilities so you are not a danger to yourself or others. Haxia sniffed a little, doing her best to ignore the tears welling in her eyes. What was already unwelcome was beginning to feel insurmountable; the World of Dreams and saidar.

“What must I do to learn, then?” Haxia forced herself to ask, her voice high and reedy. She did not look up to face Tia Sedai’s gaze. The last thing she wanted was for the woman to see the shine of tears in her eyes. Home seemed so very far away to her, and she could not help but feel ashamed of the frustration and unhappiness that had welled up so easily.

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Re: Rivers and Roses (Attn: Tia)

Postby Roan » Sat Oct 14, 2017 10:51 am

Tia Sedai
Tia wasn’t certain why the Amyrlin opted to name a Green Sister as Mistress of Novices, though moments like the one currently before her gave perhaps a bit of insight. It was clear Haxia was. . .disappointed? Distressed? The young woman was certain not happy about being in the classroom, nor did she seem excited at being at the Tower. She certainly wasn’t the first who had no desire to wear Novice Whites. Was it a matter of just being homesick, or something else?

One thing Tia could feel for her Novices was empathy. She was a bit different from most in that the Tower had been her home when she was put in Novice Whites, but she saw how hard it was for those she went to class with, and part of her couldn’t help but want to ease the transition. Perhaps because of her empathy, she was the right choice for Mistress of Novices?

Tilting her head a bit, Tia reached out and gently placed a hand on Haxia’s forearm, “What you must do is find a way to accept the situation you are in, Haxia.” She spoke softly, “I know perhaps such a thing seems impossible. I know this may not be where you wanted to be, or imagined yourself to be, but here you are.

“Time as a Novice is hard, and nothing I can say or do will make it easier. It isn’t an easy path, but if you accept it, and do your best to take in everything in your lessons, the easier your time here might be. I know perhaps this isn’t what you were hoping to hear, but I think we tend to control our level of happiness,” Tia explained.
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Re: Rivers and Roses (Attn: Tia)

Postby Bridget » Mon Oct 16, 2017 8:33 pm

Haxia
It was all she could do not to grasp Tia’s hand. No one had touched her so since Cedric had said goodbye to her at the gates of the Tower. Haxia had not thought that she could ever miss the way he liked to clasp her shoulder, as if she were a man, but she would have given anything at that moment to have her brother at her side. “Yes, Aes Sedai.” Haxia forced herself to sit up, blinked away the tears welling at the corners of her eyes, and met Tia Sedai’s eyes. She could see concern and empathy on the other woman’s face, which was almost enough to set her to crying. You are a do’Catalan a’Coralle. Haxia told herself, as firmly as she could manage. You will not cry, especially in front of an Aes Sedai.

For once, the mantra worked for her- Haxia was prone to tears, to her great shame. “I do not understand the situation I am in, Tia Sedai.” She spoke after a long moment, hoping that the other woman’s kindness would not end at her speaking so. “Must I become Aes Sedai, because I can channel?” Not that she believed that. It seemed more fanciful than the World of Dreams. “I was told I must write my name in the novice book, but no one has told me what that means.” Her voice shook a little. Oh, how she wanted to be at home in Lugard, playing cards with her friends or riding with her brother. It was bad enough she was constantly exhausted- from the chores, and the lessons, and Tel’aran’rhiod. But it seemed as if there was no end in sight.

“If I do not have to be Aes Sedai, when may I leave?” Haxia looked down as she spoke, a little ashamed. In Murandy, Aes Sedai were respected, more so than any noble. But Haxia could not imagine herself being one, could not even imagine surviving life as a novice for another week. “And…” Haxia’s voice lowered as she twisted her fingers together nervously. “Is it true I will outlive my family?” Another novice had told her that Aes Sedai lived lifetimes longer. The idea that she might outlive her brother, and her brother’s children- it was enough to make her want to vomit.

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Re: Rivers and Roses (Attn: Tia)

Postby Roan » Sun Oct 22, 2017 9:18 am

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Tia withdrew her hand, but still offered the Novice a warm smile, “These are things which should have been explained when you signed the books. I was away when you arrived, and it seems the woman who backfilled for me must have forgotten to explain the way of things.

“You are required to stay until you reach the rank of Accepted. At that point, we’ve deemed that you are in control of your ability and won’t harm yourself or others unwittingly. We would prefer women choose to remain and finish their training to earn their Shawl and the title of Aes Sedai, but we know the life isn’t for everyone,” the Mistress of Novices explained.

In the back of her mind, she made a mental note to have a quick chat with the Brown Sister who backfilled whenever Tia had to leave the Tower on business. Tilting her head slightly, Tia continued, “Chances are you will live longer than your family so long as Wheel wills it.” She let go a slow breath, “I know this is not the life you would have chosen for yourself, but it is the life you must live. Truth be told, when I learned I had the Spark, I had my heart set on joining the Warder Yards as my Mother did.

“The very last thing I wanted was to wear Novice Whites, but I had no choice. I won’t lie to you and tell you it was an easy life. It was not, but I survived, and so will you,” Tia did her best to sound encouraging. “Now. . .are you good to carry on, or shall we continue the lesson tomorrow?”

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The OBP lesson should happen over the course of time, and not really be learned all in one day based on a re-read Marla's done of the books. I'd like to see that kind of time pass in the course of their lesson, but I leave it to you if you wish to proceed in such a manner.
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